Long Weekend

It's been a long weekend. i took 2 days leave and continue with the public holiday plus the weekend. total: 5 fucking days. what the hell.

day 1: took dom around town. tried to feed him with foods. he loved roti canai and satay.

day 2: home alone day 1. do nothing.

day 3: home alone day 2. went to joined Hariz for his GORO meeting. i had a roll - its beautifully done by Hariz. thank you! just watched tv ever since i got home. 4pm till late.

day 4: home alone day 3. woke up around 9am. got dressed up and went to Joe's place. then head to Fadil's wedding around 12pm. reached home around 2pm and start watching TV. felt so hungry. lazy to drive. text man ( guy next door ) and went out for dinner @subang SS15. Ling were not around. wonder where he have gone to? Lee Chong Hai called. wanted to hanging out later on. man & me went for KL tour which was very boring but i managed to handle it. i said, eh look at that? is that KLCC? oh my~~ bla bla bla ahaha pretending like a mexican tourist for the first time. then, everyone seems to call me in to check time arrival and all. yeah, man sent me home around 1130. got dressed up and met the rest Asia Cafe. so we just talked and talk and talk till 4am.

day 5: home alone day 4. i told them i need to go home around 5am so i can continue with my house chores. they ignored me and we went off at 4am. i cant sleep so i start washing my cloths. 2 rounds. i think i fell asleep around 6am and woke up at 8am. start to do the chores. watched TV. till late. there was Twilight so i just watched it. i was so tired but what the hell, i told myself i need to watch. OMFG! i was just fell for edward cullen. how would it'll be nice if life is just like a movie? i really want a vegetarian vampire for my next christmas. haha. ironic isn't it? and then, all came home thank god!

i think i have not get over with my Penang trip 2 weeks ago. i just really got pissed of with sudden change or whatever so i just made my way to Penang.

attendees KL: Jeff (local GPS/walking buddha), Matthew (the driver), Jaja (cheeky typical city girl who LOL), Elena (the Lawyer) and Wez (crazy nigerian).


Penang rocks! i heart penang so much. missed those time when everything seems to be okay. and now i am falling off the road. anyhow...it's a long way to go...

still...my love for goth, HIM, vampires, lomo and all are the same. i have a new vampy..edward cullen..but my heart still long to LeStat..so long...till i write again..off to new moon! tadaa

I heard this song this mid-morning while i was driving. And it reminisce me sometime.
well, there is somebody actually dedicated this song to me. Yerp! After Midnight by Yuna. What the hack..anyway..enjoy the song...

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

Lyrics | Yuna lyrics - After Midnight lyrics

After midnight I shall kidnap you from the world
And I'll keep you in my room
Hush now my love and hold my hand
After midnight I shall take you to a place
Where no one else should know of
Hush now my love and hold my hand

You are exactly where you supposed to be
And if they come for you
They would have to find me

Stay
Keep me awake
Keep me amazed
Only for today
Keep me dazed
My love is yours only

After midnight
I shall stay awake
And if you chose to close your eyes now
Hush now my love
I'll watch you sleep

You are exactly where you supposed to be
And if they come for you
They would have to find me

Stay
Keep me awake
Keep me amazed
Only for today
Keep me dazed
My love is yours only

Stay
Keep me awake
Keep me amazed
Only for today
Keep me dazed
My love is yours only

Differences between The Mars and Venus

I love to dance. I love parties. I love free hugs. I love cuddles and kisses. I love pot. I love discos. I love Jack. I love pretty V. High love for Mrs. Hen. I love trance. I love crowds. I can shuffle (definitely i am). I love rock. I love goth. I love HIM. I love reggae. I love rockstars. I love guitarist I love mr. dreadlock. I love my best friend. I love my imaginary BF. The intimacy hmm, love it all. And I loved you’s. I just love everything that you do.

It looks like the time has won over the year. Too fast. Too fast. I can’t get enough more time. Year by year; day by day; hour by hour; minutes and seconds gone by in a blink of eyes. Yes, I admit that I am growing older, getting higher and a little bit wiser and I am losing interest. I’ve been everywhere. I’ve been in everything. What else should I do? I’m not going back to my ignorant years. This is for sure.

And I am tired to please everyone. Let alone myself. Sit and stink. Think and sink. I shall not plead you to understand me. I want you to understand what I am for? It is good enough if you know me better. Can you feel the vibe? If you love me for my body, I shall not satisfy for your needs. I adore you if you love me the way I am. Selfish or not, to pot or to pop, it is not about the differences between us. You may draw the lines, even I can draw more lines but it is all about my selfishness.

I can be whatever you want me to be. What ever it takes. It’s just that I am a selfish Jean.

Ling, i'll love you anyways even if you are so stinks!!

Help!!

writer's blockage!! help!! i need idea to keep on crapping, yo!

what is your fucking problem?

i just said that you are my friend but that does not mean that i am your follower!

the comeback, kid

he called me again. i dont know why. out of sudden. just after the many months and i did forgot his existancy. he's the forgotten one, that's all i could say. he just called in to say he's available now. and what does he meant by that? and why he pick me? after the premade lovestory he told everyone. and believe me when i say YOU'RE NOT INVITED!! so long december!!

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how much time do we need to live?

how much money do we need to earn a living?

how much effort to satisfy oneself greed?

no matter how much effort you put in,

no matter how long you work through,

it cant be enough for everyone.

holga 135, yellow litos

jaja and sabiqa.
litos first roll







quite scarry
holga 135BC
ektachrome elite expired '97







pinky and lancer wannabe. good match?
holga 135BC
ektachrome elite: expired 97





castle in the sky
holga 135BC
ektachrome elite: expired 97








anis and suria
litos first roll




i will be posting more pictures in my facebook!

bang bang i shot you down part ii

wallawey. seriously i fell in love with lomolitos. the camera looks so, so cute. it is disposable camera with colored filter. and of course, it is a film one and it use 35mm film format. and i bought the yellow one. guess what! the camera has a small but loud flash. seriusly.

a few weeks ago, i went to a CS gathering at William, SS2. i met Maija, Kak Ros, Sabiqa, Sorayya, Mun and 3 backpackers from Poland and US. this is my first time joining any gatherings after the last one, 8 years ago. i thought i'll be like so quiet since i am very shy type person. those loverley people kept me laughing out loud. they were so warm and i feel like i've known them for 10 years. so i brought along my lomo cams holga135BC and my dear lomolitos. at first, they all laughed at my lomocams. i dont feel offensed by that. because they dont know what my little, cute litos camera could do. so i let them play with it. guess what!! sorayya love with litos already!! the yellow flash! she's going to buy one litos just after showed her my pictures.

oh my~~ how could i forget to go and develop those films. i've got 3 rolls now and needed to be developed. hopefully, i'll manage to do it by this weekend. i cant wait the results~~

go go yellow litos!!

bang bang i shot you down

yeah!! finally, i received my mr. holga today! after so long tried to buy one of the great lomo camera. i think i've sit here in my cubicle for a few hours just to read the manual. and there goes the photography terms ie: shutter speed which is means the sound of the shutter. eh do i get it right or not eh? lol anyway, im so glad that my dear friend Adli was so supportive and he would help me with those terms. thank you yeah but what the hack with those terms. dont think, just shoot. and i bought another lomo cam but this one not really sounds so serius: Lomolitos. and i really hope i will get it by this weekend. cant wait for it.

and then again...

f*ck!!! they finally block all community services and blogs. i just feel like to close accounts to everything. and that's it.

earth hour 2009

earth hour. i really love the anthem IN THE DARK WE LOOK THE SAME. and yeah i really support this event. and i participated in the CSR: EARTH HOUR at my office. we just happily sent out the flyers. the lady assigned me to post out the flyers around the housing area taman desa. mostly are chinese residents. and they had dogs. and i really hate dogs!!! furly and barking things!! and fierce too lol. i was with this girl (blue tudung) just slipped in the flyers at car wipers. hik hik. kind of cheating right? but im not going to let the dogs bite me okay! well, thats the least i could do for the earth hour 2009. what do you contribute for this event?

so i was out on saturday. i went to KLCC. i had a small transaction there. this guy bought two rolls of expired Kodak Ektachrome from me. i charged him RM5 per roll. i know its wasting my time and effort. from PJ to KLCC. with scooter plus the heavy rain. not worth it at all. but then, apart from the waste, i've enjoyed the evening. waiting the rain to stop. my pants all wet. too bad, no rainbows. sob sob i reached KLCC around 530 something. poor guy. he had to wait for me a few hours. because he dont let me call him. so i cant do much on setting the time. i went straight to see him in front of Topshop. he was there with some girlfriend. i just passed him the film, got my money and i tschau lorr. and i was like WALLA klcc hik hik i've never been there for ages. almost like i dont know. a few years maybe. im so comfy in subang and i dont want to get out from subang. unless my mom sells her house so i have to get out or even if she chase me out lol. all the while, i saw a quite a numbers wearing the earth hour shirt. a couple here and there. cute actually. i just wandering where they got that shirt huh? WWF? maybe? so i just waited there untill 8.30. sitting outside facing the Twin Tower. eating the pretzel. so delicious. it was 8.29pm and the people over the other side was like counting down, 5..4..3..2..1 tadaaa

i thought the whole klcc tower and suria will shut down the lights. well, its just the tower. and the restaurants around it had lit the candles. so sweet. JEALOUS. JEALOUS. hik hik. nothing much on that. by far i think malaysia just put her effort to contribute something. but its not enough. im really sorry to say this. i think malaysians are not well aware about the global warming. so thats it. im not going to say anything more about this. well hey give yourself a high five if you're into this global warming thing.

WHATEVER!!

ee i hate this time around. my office is going to shift back to our HQ which is situated in Taman Desa. my dept will only shift on friday. in three days time. i've packed my things over the weekend. almost done with my things. except for my pc here and table calender, a few pens, oh my~~my shoes under the table. thank goodness. as usual, i acted like angel-like. love to help others. yeah sure i can help but to those who close to me. you know, working in a public listed company. the politics, the clicks and all. and you have to know how to choose your friends. so, i got some issues with my HR manager. she's so ee i dont know how to explain. she's so arrogant and she thinks she is the boss. oh gth la. she called me early in the morning she said i have to pack for her. i was like hey thats your thing. go and pack yourself. then, my dept HOD ask me to do it. i have no choice but to do it. and now im so stressed out. the whole week plus the public holiday i have to work. my mom complaint i worked too much, sleep too little. eat less. and that is not good she says.

so this morning i helped my dept to cleaned out all the unwanted things. so we got this big boxes. when i opened it, damn its all handphones. oh my~~ i found the 1st nokia phone, then the second, 3210, 3310 and yeah it stop there. there is no updated phone. and moktar gave me the pager. wakaka the pager is long gone right? hee so pityfull, right. big company but so kedekut one bahaha then we opened the next big pandora box. tadaa guess what!! it full with back to date cameras, camera straps, tripods, casings, binoculors, and oh my~~ its polaroid camera. the instant photo thing. i remembered the last time i saw this camera when i was 12 or something. i went to an autoshow in PWTC with my dad. and there was a batmobile. i took a picture with batmobile and that guy sold the picture rm10. thats the last time i saw it. but today, i played with that camera. it's so cool. the camera is still good condition, there is film inside. i dont know where went wrong. i cant snap a picture. i really dont know how it worked. too bad. so as i digged in more, i found alot of films. it's Kodak Ektachrome 35mm, Kodak Gold. Fuji Superia. all expired film. i just took all of it. one full carrefour plastic bags. alala im rich lol. and i came know about the LOMO camera last few months back. they still use the films. hey lomo camera is cute. its a plastic camera. and they got superb effects. and im going to get a few of lomo cams. holga and diana and colorsplash and superspampler oh my~~ im listing all of it i think. so, im going to sell half of it and i'll keep the other half. anyway, check this site out www.lomography.com im 100% sure you'll love it. ok, i think i should stop now.

signing off.

love, xoxo

TaNk GiRL

tadaa my exclusive stencil t-shirt. here it is. not really the first t-shirt i've made. i think this is the third one. the other two were so unlucky to be on this blog. erm i'll try my level best to get them here. im really sorry because i dont have any camera. im not a gadget freak. i only use stand alone nokia handphone. so what! lol

ok let me introduce you with my tank girl top. it is my very expensive tank top that i ever had. DKNY white collection. since im not wearing it anymore due to im getting bigger or the shirt is shrinking down, or either way i dont have guts to throw it away, so that is why im doing this my so called stencil t-shirt project. and im already sick with the same shirt with everyone. and i love to be different.

so, this is my first freezer paper stencil. and it is awesome. i mean no hard work required. cutting the stencil is made easy. the fun part is when you do the painting. the stencil will stuck on your shirt and it wont moves around. no more smudges. the best part: freezer paper is not avail in malaysia. i've been searching it from grocery store, hypermarket, bookstore, stationary shop and i have found none. i was bright enough to search it at ebay. hey i got it. the girl sold it to me by yards. oh my~~ she's making profits out of it. naa i have no choice but to get what i wanted the most.

as you may see the end result. im loving it so much. and i'll do as many as i can to fill up my wardrobe. but too bad. i just had only two yards of the freezer paper. i've cutted a few more and now only left 1/2 yard. and the half yard im going to give to my tagged friend, cikkim since he asked me too many questions and im getting sick and i really hope he'll shut his mouth. i brought to my office and i showed to all my colleagues. "hey, jaja that is awesome. can you do it for me one" i want to learn about photoshop now. anyone?

Hobi: STENCIL

yahoo. yes lah. i made it!! aku dah buang semua TOXIC friends around me. pheww lega rasanya apabila tidak ada seorang pun yang berani nak mengGUNAkan aku. kalau y'all nak try, sila kan. gimme your best shot to utilised me. i repeat TRY HARD. ahaha

semenjak kebelakangan ini, shit my bahasa is slightly rosak. not slightly. i think i've done the ruined before me. so what the hack. i'll still blogging. and i wont stop. dont you dare to stop me!!
so, since sudah tidak ada kawan2, jadinya sudah tiada lagi malam-malam yg happening di hujung minggu. tiada lagi sesi berdansa di kelab-kelab malam. tidak ada lagi gelek-menggelek di kelab dangdut lol tiada lagi lepak di mamak place till morning. no more hangovers. i've done everything. the damages done. so maybe it's time for me to stay at home. be a tv freak - prison break, desperate housewives, spa Q, now hero season 2 is coming. woo gila lah. i cant even bare to leave the tv. memang peaceful. tapi aku akui sikap bosan menyelubungi aku di kala jam 10 malam di hari sabtu. buat bodoh sudah.

pada hari isnin dalam beberapa bulan yang sudah, aku terlintas untuk mencari hobi baru untuk mengisi waktu senggang aku. hobi: membaca? duhh boring yang amat. tapi anda harus pandai mencari bahan-bahan yang bagus untuk tidak membuat anda tertidur. hobi: berenang? nahhh not good enough for me. kat rumah tak ada swimming pool. tak best. geli nak gi public pool. hobi: menjahit? hee tak reti langsung and tak minat. hobi: stencil? yes lah. im loving it so much. it takes the whole night just to cut the stencil. the next day - paint it! jadi nya, hari minggu aku tidak lah begitu membosankan ;p

yahoo aku telah berjaya membuat stencil. tp aku rasa aku masih berada di takok yang pertama.
still need practising. perlu mengasah minda untuk menjadi kreatif. so far, aku dah buat beberapa stenciled t-shirt. walaupun hasil nya tak seberapa, tp aku tetap berpuas hati. sebab aku yg buat wakakaka so jikalau ada sesiapa yang sudi memberi tunjuk ajar, tolong lah saya yang agak baru dalam dunia stencil ini.

sekian, laporan dari aquariom SHEMOPHOGUS

xoxo